As an 18 year old high school graduate I feel I owe good old LJ a new update.
Well it all happened, it's funny because all the friends I have on LJ a.) don't check any more, and b.) are already 18 and graduated or graduated along side me so this seems like nothing and really it isn't. I mean 18 is cool but I am still greatly limited by my parents, and graduation as the teachers put it was "for my parents" I didn't do anything new, I did more work in the past threee graduations than I did in this one. But now it's strange, I realize that high schools were almost random groupings, friends from high school and other fields seem more meshed. Life seems more circular and more empty. It's not like the road ahead is foggy I just came to the end of the road and it feels like there are 72 different choices to turn on to. I just want to go down all of them. And that I shall try to do.

I just started thinking how this weekend will be my last time performing on the QO stage and I almost cried. Like there are still tears in my eyes that might release themselves before the weekend is over. I mean this has been my impetus to go to school for the past four years. I went into the bathroom really quick once I was sure that I was good and oh man when did I grow? Suddenly I looked like 10 feet tall? I don't even know how to react right now.

My last semester in high school....... how bittersweet

Pd 1: Theatre with Indo: aside from the fact that I am rapidly starting to hate Mr. I, and his unprofessional behaviorm this is a great first period and I have Wagner, Dani, Stacey, and the young life trio as I now call them. And yeah.... theatre.... okay

Pd 2: Food Trends with Ms Davis: Ick that teacher, Well I had Daravatey and Klara were in this class and Klara somehow attracted Lauren Weller to her table and now Daravatey has left and Klara is trying to switch out....... Leaving me with Lauren Weller THROW UP!!!!!!!!!!

Pd 3: English with Hardinge: She is way to awake and I have no friends... except Monica and Kevin Hauri... kinda... oh and Lauren Weller again isn't life just marvelous?

Pd 4: Psyche with Benedict: Worst teached ever, on the plus side I have Tim, Christine, Caitlin, and Sonya in that class but OMG THE TEACHER IS HORRID!!!!!!!

Pd 5: Chambers with Indo: I now sit next to Demetri and Jeff SWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETTTTT!!!!!!! And chambers is just awesome so yeah!

Pd 6: Newspaper with Stahly: STACEY IS IN NEWSPAPER!!!!!!!! IUFHUEDHGFUGHWREG :D I LOVE IT!!!! Bianka is there too and Alice, Jennie, Melanie, and Lauren too!!!! Plus Stahly likes me now I GOT AN A LAST SEMESTER!!!!!!!!!

Pd 7: Creative Writing with Hardinge: I am never there I have missed class for legit reasons like six times! Jennie is my friend in that class but there are lots of cool people and i am writing a one act play because I didn't feel like being original!

THE END!!!!!!

I really wish I was good at poetry, instead I just write what I feel, but it's just ambiguous words, nothing of value.

On a side note I like how i sound really angry.

Can I
Can I deal with this
Can I handle this this this outrage
Can I really be ridiculed
Can I let you have that much power
Do You
Do you think this is that insignificant
Do you believe what you do is right
Do you understand what you are doing
Do you comprehend your actions
I won’t
I won’t let you win
I won’t come out of this the smaller man
I won’t sit around and be taken advantage of
I won’t comply to your mold and I will go on
I will
I will do as I please and not hear from you
I will reach above those around me
I will make you regret
I will come out better for the ride

So this is easily the most I have cried in any given year of high school, we are putting my dog down tomorrow and I am just not ready for it, I know he is old but he still has life and I have just had him too long (he is older than my little brother). Pretty much this year sucks!

I can't believe I am graduating in like half a year! Excuse me while I cry!

When did I become a confident singer? I feel so on top of the world this year!

Last week I left my AP Theory book in English class, since then I have seen it there but never bothered to get it, today I did, then I managed to bring it to every class only to leave it in the auditorium after practice...

THE END

i'm pure evil no joke

you know the phrase "i can read you like a book" you are more like books on tape, and it is just a tad disgusting.

to no one in particular but i like it none the less.

So along with all the other stresses of this week I need a prom group............. unless the drama kids included me but I don't think they did. Also I was hoping to have a date but the only person I would ask would be Klara (as a friend) but I can't think of a way to ask that with out being awkward, and Worley now thinks I like her even though I told her I didn't. also the 2 or 3 concerts, SATS, and performance of a song I don't know at the arts fair have me slightly worried oh and that english paper I will do tomorrow in school since it is a rough draft and its allowed to be rough.... OY oh and I need an egg shell for chem efiadsgaijfsbhljksdfhblkdgjshbjdgks

Yay my puppy (who is 345637 years old) is not dieing yet! And i am now the only soloist for our radio song group (as in i have the whole thing but i feel bad about that) but it seems maybe today is the turning point and things are about to get better :)

in the end people are sweet!

So i was supposed to have finished my project last night but Matt sent me the images at 5 yesterday and me being me i am way to ADD to finish in that amount of time which is why i told him to send them to me as early as tuesday/wednsday.......... Now i woke up at 3:45 and i am pretty awake... weird right?

So auditions are in less than 24 hours and i am SOOOOOOOOOOO freaked out, breathing is almost a chore it's insane. HOW AN i (my i button broke so i copy and paste) GOiNG TO DO THiS??? Sure i am ready in theory but i have never had a good musical audition and i want to change that but now i am pressuring my self, worst of all now there are two people in my audition grop trying out for the same part (i used to be the only one tryin out for the part at all) and one of them is scott and he fits the part just as well so i am going to sleep now because i need rest

the other day i borrowed a friends locker to store a project in because Jeana's locker is to crowded thanks to all of our stuff (mine, MJ's, and Jeana's) so anyways i went to the locker and took the combination out of my wristband (i lost che if you see him please tell me!!!!!) then i woundered what time it was and then i thought "they should make something like a wristband that tells time"... yes i invented the watch!

:( I miss them sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much already and it's not even a whole day yet!!! I really hope to keep in touch with them because they were so awesome it's just sad that I wont be seeing them all together with the hosts and all :( I predict emoness for a while

So I can't write viewpoints as well while on my meds, I just tapped in to my inner/outer ADHD child and managed to get upset shoemaker elves that werent able to make shoes due to missing digits so they mess around with the building at night.

The British are here! I am so excited for today that I woke up a good half hour early